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Finny Friday

I am at chemo today and wanted to post something cute and happy. What else could I do, but think about my Finny?

He is turned out to be a very social little boy. He loves the girls with his whole heart and he is ALWAYS happy to see me. He is doing well with his house training. I am not saying he is perfect but he is getting there. He has figured out how to ring the bell on the door when he needs to go outside.

He and Sadie have become big buddies and spend most of the day playing. It's so much fun watching them. They make me laugh.

He has learned how to sit, and he knows what no means. He has gotten lots of practice with that. Yesterday he learned that the trash can is really a buffet just for him. He is also not so keen on the ceiling fans. He thinks they are all out to get him. Miss E turned one on the other night and he was very scared of it. Now whenever he enters the room he glances up just to make sure the ceiling is not going to attack him.

It's hard to believe we have only had him for a couple of weeks. He fits into our family like he has been here the whole time.   

How I've been feeling

I have had a pretty good week this week and have spent my time with Finny outside, trying to keep him from having accidents in the house. He is keeping me on my toes and very busy. He is learning very fast. I have been trying to take a couple pictures everyday to focus on something positive in my day. Things are finally starting to pop around here.

Everything is turning green and it's been good for my soul.

 
It's settled down and I am feeling like myself and getting back into a regular routine, not needing naps during the day.

I keep getting told that I am "inspiring" or am so "courageous". I don't feel that way. I am doing what anyone else would do faced with the same situation. When a crisis hits your family or yourself, you can't just sit there and do nothing. You have to pick yourself up everyday and get on with it. So that is what I'm doing. It's not inspiring or courageous. It's just what I have to do.

Chemo tomorrow. My Doctor tells me it will be easier because I am only getting one drug instead of two. I am happy about that. I will be tweeting and on facebook from the infusion center to let everyone know how it's going.

Just a quick update

I had planned on posting on Friday from the infusion center but they had all my sites blocked. Then when I got home I was beat and needed a nap. Yesterday was more of the same. I wore myself out and did not have the energy to post.

The chemo this time is not nearly as hard as it was the first time around. I am a bit more achy with these drugs. Sleep is not coming easy to me either. But I am trudging on. Next Friday I only have one drug in my infusion and it should be easier.

I want to thank everyone who has sent food over, flowers and cards, and baskets of goodies to get us all through this. I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful friends and family. I also have a bit of a cheering section over on Twitter and face book too. They are always checking in to see how things are going and cheering me on. I couldn't do it with out you all!

Finny keeps us busy and smiling around here. Keeps us all on our toes. He is such a comical little puppy.

It's been so warm here and I have spent a lot of time outside in the sun. The daffodils are about to pop and spring is here!  

A Hand Full of Snowdrops

Today was such a beautiful day I felt so much better and I got outside with my camera. It's what really relaxes me and gets me in my zone. No thoughts of cancer or being "sick" Just me and my camera and the warm sun shining on my face.

 It was a great feeling. I have gotten some rest and was able to drive today to pick the girls up from school which was a real treat!

I love this little spot at the end of our lane where the little stone house is. These little snow drops just sitting there by the road. Evidence that someone did once live there long ago.

Wishing everyone a Happy Saint Patrick's Day!

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind always be at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
and rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand

Overwhelmed by all your love and support

I am healing after my port surgery and biopsy yesterday. It went well and we arrived home from the hospital around 4:PM. I am happy to be finished with all of that. My head is still spinning with the news of my recurrence. I go over and over it in my mind wondering why I had no idea my cancer had returned. I realized last night as I was laying awake in bed that It does no good for me to wonder about it. The only thing I can do is concentrate on the task at hand. Getting rid of my cancer once and for all. Making sure my girls and husband are happy and loved.

I have received an incredible outpouring of support from family and friends. Everyone willing to lend a hand in any way they can. I feel stronger from all of the love and support I have gotten in the last few days. At times when I feel overwhelmed I just think about all the people who are routing for me and it makes everything a little easier. Someone said to me today "You seem to be doing really well, your not trying to be superwoman are you?" My answer was that sitting here feeling sorry for myself is not going to do me any good. It will not change anything or make any of this go away.

I scheduled my chemo today and will have it at 10:00 on Friday morning for about 4 hours. My doctor tells me that this round of chemo will be easier on my stomach and I might not loose my hair. So I am happy about that. I am eager to get it started and be able to actively fight my cancer. I will be able to have my computer there with me and will be tweeting and will also be on facebook. So come on by and leave me a note. I'll be sitting there in my little chemo chair wearing my pink snuggie, hanging out with my best friend Paul.