It's funny how not having hair changes the way people treat you. After shaving my head on Tuesday I thought that I would be house bound. I thought that I would not feel like going out and doing everyday things. After one day of not feeling confident I realized that I really do not feel any different. In fact the other day I walked down to the mailbox bald. Yup, I forgot that I was bald, I forgot that I did not have a scarf on. I just walked right out the door and before I knew it there I was at the mailbox thinking. OMG! I just for got I am bald! How weird is that? How do you forget something like that? I guess it was not as big a deal as I thought it would be. After all my hair does not define me!
I did get out this week. I picked up my kids from school. Feeling a little nervous I have to say. It was the first place I went after The Big Buzz. I found something out. There are a lot of people that are pulling for me. Before I could hide my cancer. Under my baggy clothes. My scars not visible to anyone other than me really. Now that I am bald and wearing a scarf my cancer is more visible. I had so many people walk up to me and give me a hug. People that did not know about my struggle with cancer. I had my best buds, patting me on the back and telling me how pretty I look. " You know not many people can pull that off Sarah." But your face, you just look so great! Thanks SF! It was empowering I felt like I could do anything, like I could go out and do my errands and go places with my kids and husband. So I did. I went to my Starbucks, all my friends were so happy to see me. A complete stranger came up to me and said she was a one year breast cancer survivor. We stood there and talked about our cancer and bonded over coffee. To Target I went after that. Another cancer survivor, who gave me a hug and told me she would be praying for me. Off to the craft store for bandannas and sparkles ( I will post about this next). Yet another breast cancer survivor. A hug, words of encouragement. Lastly to riding lessons( a three hour riding extravaganza) another cancer survivor. 7 years out from diagnosis and treatment. I felt empowered, energized by these woman. Living their lives and beating cancer. Giving me words of encouragement. Complete strangers pulling for ME. This week I expected looks of pity, and instead I received a gift . People did not stare at me. They asked me if I needed help instead. People talked to me, and smiled at me. After the last few days I have a good feeling about the world. For a couple days it was not so harsh, people were nice, and helpful and encouraging. It is a good feeling knowing that there are good people out there. We all need to remember that everyone you see has a story. There are so many people out there who's lives have been touched by cancer. A LOT of people. There is compassion out there too, from complete strangers.
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