My Next Surgery

Next Thursday I have to go back to the hospital for outpatient surgery. I am bummed. I thought I was done. I have to get a lymph node removed and get my chemo port put in. When I had my bilateral mastectomy they did a sentinel node biopsy. One of my nodes was positive for cancer. A very small 1mm carcinoma. It is supposed to be an easier  surgery and only will be done on one side. I feel like I am just getting better. After this new surgery I have about 4 weeks and then I start chemo. Chemo is my unknown frostier. I am a bit anxious about it. I do not know what to expect. I do not know how my body will react. I hope that I will be able to have a somewhat normal life during chemo but I just don't know. I will probably loss my hair, I will be tiered. I have been having trouble sleeping. I just can't turn my brain off. I think of all the things I have not done. All the things I still want to do. It makes me want to fight.